am just listening to some slightly more depressing music and wallowing in my blues... lol... i think its mostly due to the lack of sleep tt i'm like tt? hope i'd be better after a good rest... i really feel so screwed up inside... i really wish someone could make me feel better... :'(

hmmm, time passes so quickly... yuan was just telling cm tt he's gotta do his uk apps quickly, and i commented tt it seemed like just a while ago tt we had set our sights on going overseas. we all did managed to get a place in good overseas unis, but in e end, its me who isn't gonna go. haha, i remember how we planned to meet one hols at Roland Garros or the US Open... looks like i'm not gonna be able to do tt due to my lack of breaks next few years... :P oh wells... most certainly am gonna miss yihan... haha, u've been a great friend these years... its gonna be weird w u missing from the 4 of us... :/ certainly felt a lil nostalgic and xin suan after talking abt some of the stuff tt we did in sch, and e silly jokes we share! haha... :(

4 of us after a game of tennis...

hmmm, fri was quite an exciting day for me... albeit a really tiring one... :( slept so late on thurs, but had to crawl out of bed to attend sch on fri... :/ but yeah, it was one boring lecture. i dun like hanry yu... his accent is incomprehensible, and i get so tired just listening to his droning... its like a really powerful lullaby... :x so being irritated with the lecture, i just ponned the next one and went early for rehearsals for jam and hop! :) was kinda glad to meet the other paegent pple... they're such a fun and whacky bunch... nice move away from the dull and drudgery of work... :) after coach luke (big bitch!) had his share of standardisation... much to our dismay cuz we had this really awful action on stage, we practised and practised till we were ok... but it was still bad. i mean, its bad enough tt the stage hardly has space to any movement, and well, it was my first time doing anything of this sort on stage, so yeah... ;)

but really, this whole thing has been a whole new experience... certainly more fun than anything i've done b4. afterall, the last 19 years, i've only taken part in sports and music, never have i done anything on stage like this! i think i should continue to try new stuff... it can be rewarding... :) yup, after the hustle on stage, we were transported to scotts isetan by van and car to have our makeup done.. aha... the girls were on first, so the guys just quickly ate and played pool! haha, man quite a few of them were not bad, but i ain't to shabby tt day either... ;) after tt, was our turn... the lady was damn funny... bitching abt her boss, then tell me my skin's damn dry, chiding me for not looking after it... lol! then she said i had v nice lashes, and blah blah... haha... was like a chit chat session tt didn't take v long. in fact, i didn't even see a difference to my face! :p after zhenru, had her face caked and drawn all over... (she sure took damn long la), we could finally go off! went to this hair place... and the woman was so nice to help me thin my hair, then style it... haha, at first she felt my hair was good enough liao, dun even need to style... lol! ;) the other guys had their hair semi painted in bright interesting colors... cool! the girls... had exploded hair... u gotta see the photos to understand... lol! ;) oh, and sure enough, some of the girls exploded with the hair... they can be so pissy when they dun think their hair looks good... :/ scary man!

so, we headed back to a long wait for our appearance on stage... 2 hours passed quite fast... though we got so nervous towards the time when we had to appear... :/ my partner was like holding me so tight, and telling me if she forgot the line, i had to cover up for her...! lol... and soon enough, the show began... and we were on stage, next thing i knew, me and geraldine were at the mike. and she really forgot her lines, and she just passed me the mike. so i just blurted out what i had to say... and it was actually recieved well enough (for me... haha), and yeah... so i was happy... but wow, zhenru had like an army down, screaming for her, and she was like going, thank u thank u, i love u too... haha, just so natural on stage! impressive man...

after everything was wrapped up... i skipped the DXO party thingy they had, though they were so insistent... i was just too tired. (side note.. got asked to DXO again today for law bash.. i'm too tired and broke to club k? so yeah... unless someone wants to pay my cab fare home... lol!) anw, met up w royston and gary for supper, then sat around in royston's hall... i maintain its too small and i'd feel so clastrophobic there man... :/ haha! and the lack of an luxuries - like tv is not acceptable! :p